I have been sick so much today. My throat hurts, my eyes are watery and my head hurts. I feel depressed today too and feel numb inside.
My boyfriend has gone to work away this week and I didn't realise how much he makes me happy and keeps me stable.
I hate my borderline personality disorder. It controls me when I am alone.
I hate when my boyfriend goes away for work too. It's like I become a different person, sitting alone in the dark in our little apartment, trying not to look in the fridge. Blah. It gets easier though.
ReplyDeleteHello you, I've been meaning to add you for a while but my phone doesn't do it, so I'm going to do it on my laptop now so I don't forget. :-)
ReplyDeleteSorry you've had a tricky day too. I don't have a boyfriend, but I definitely get attached to some people and then get really upset when they inevitably go away. Like my counseller - I saw her for over 3 years then I graduated from uni and couldnt see her anymore - that was the 10 weeks ago think that one of my recent posts goes on about. she meant the world to me and i miss her. do you get any help for the BPD, my CPN wants me to try DBT is I dont go inpatient.
Love u, hold on in there xxx
Sorry it's such a rough day sweetie. My boyfriend was at work that last few days and I missed him like crazy. My ED gets much louder when he isn't around. It will get easier.
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I know how it feels to be alone. I like being LEFT alone but I don't like BEING alone. I'm sorry you feel badly. But we're all here for you.
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~Scarlett