I have a confession to make....
I am a obese bulimia suffer and I haven't admitted it apart from to Nina of the Night because I have been worried that I will be judged and not be able to be part of this lovely community. I put on all my weight due to a abusive relationship, a nervous breakdown and a lot of medication for my BPD. I went up to 196lbs (eeeeek can not believe I have actually admitted this now) but I am now 176lbs so I am getting back down to the weight I was. I hope nobody judges me, eating disorders can effect anyone and any shape of size yet I can't quite accept this hence my delay getting therapy and being worried about going to the self help group and eating disorder assessment next month. Do you think they will still help me?
I have binged and been sick so many times today I have lost count and my throat hurts like hell.
I am kind of fed up with it today :( I just want to stop, its so frustrating. I find I am worse when I am left by myself too.