Tomorrow (or today I should say as its 1.30am) I am going to sort myself out. I need to restrict, I am going to the HSGD. I hate myself so much. Right now I am feeling so empty. I didn't realize how my boyfriend makes me feel safe and complete. I just want to cut my arms but I know I will regret this in the morning....
Monday, December 31, 2012
I have fallen out with my boyfriend. So I am downstairs on the sofa and he is in the bed. I am devastated because we usually get on so well :( He wouldn't show any affection earlier and said he only wanted sex....!!? I was so hurt, I really needed a cuddle because I wanted to be sick and couldn't deal with my emotions. Instead I laid there with my childhood comfort blanket and cried quietly so he couldn't hear. I then texted him to come and see me to 'talk' because I was sad. He just ignored it....so obviously doesn't want to make up.