I had a truly rubbish day. I went into the city with my boyfriend to spend my Christmas money. My mental health hadn't been overally good but it was manageable until I started trying on some jeans and the voices started.
'Your so fat, no one loves you, your useless and pathetic you fat cunt, go on slit your wrists, kill yourself'
I spent the rest of the afternoon trying to not cry as they started to gang up on me. I am trying to keep myself busy but all I want to do is self harm, be sick and bang my head against the wall. I don't want them to control me anymore though. I want to be strong.