Saturday, December 29, 2012

Truely Rubbish Day

I had a truly rubbish day. I went into the city with my boyfriend to spend my Christmas money. My mental health hadn't been overally good but it was manageable until I started trying on some jeans and the voices started.

'Your so fat, no one loves you, your useless and pathetic you fat cunt, go on slit your wrists, kill yourself'

I spent the rest of the afternoon trying to not cry as they started to gang up on me. I am trying to keep myself busy but all I want to do is self harm, be sick and bang my head against the wall. I don't want them to control me anymore though. I want to be strong.


  1. You are strong my dear, you have the capability to fight back and against them.
    Stay strong ok, all my love to you xx

  2. Stay strong, beautiful girl. You can overcome those voices - they'll never entirely control you... you're just too strong and eventually you'll tell them off.
    I love your comments and look forward to reading your posts. People adore you and you don't even know them.
    Keep your head up.

  3. You ARE strong Lucie, you're a very strong, beautiful woman and you are capable of ignoring the voices and keeping in control YOURSELF. I believe in you sweetie xxx

  4. I am sorry that you had such a rubbish day, I hope that tomorrow will be better.

  5. Trying on clothes is hard for people with eating disorders.
    We look in the mirror and there's just so much fat there it's unspeakable. I hope you can resist the urge to self harm.