Saturday, December 29, 2012

Truely Rubbish Day

I had a truly rubbish day. I went into the city with my boyfriend to spend my Christmas money. My mental health hadn't been overally good but it was manageable until I started trying on some jeans and the voices started.

'Your so fat, no one loves you, your useless and pathetic you fat cunt, go on slit your wrists, kill yourself'

I spent the rest of the afternoon trying to not cry as they started to gang up on me. I am trying to keep myself busy but all I want to do is self harm, be sick and bang my head against the wall. I don't want them to control me anymore though. I want to be strong.

5 comments:

  1. You are strong my dear, you have the capability to fight back and against them.
    Stay strong ok, all my love to you xx

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  2. Stay strong, beautiful girl. You can overcome those voices - they'll never entirely control you... you're just too strong and eventually you'll tell them off.
    I love your comments and look forward to reading your posts. People adore you and you don't even know them.
    Keep your head up.
    XOXO

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  3. You ARE strong Lucie, you're a very strong, beautiful woman and you are capable of ignoring the voices and keeping in control YOURSELF. I believe in you sweetie xxx

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  4. I am sorry that you had such a rubbish day, I hope that tomorrow will be better.
    xoxo

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  5. Trying on clothes is hard for people with eating disorders.
    We look in the mirror and there's just so much fat there it's unspeakable. I hope you can resist the urge to self harm.

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